Uncertainty

Hell, I don't know where to start... I have all this mixture of feelings inside of me and I really can't tell what is important and what is not.

To start, the band. We are taking a break now. Last gig of the tour tomorrow, in Glasgow. We have dropped a place in the ranks. We are #4 now, which is surprising after all because our shows have been all messy lately.

I started my teaching experience with Keimo and it was fun, I liked to teach him the basics of woodwind instruments. It's always fun to be with him, even when he is the serious and well-organized Professional Lemon. I guess that if it wasn't like that I would have grown bored of being in the same band as him... So, no mystery after all.

Then again, I am gathering my students and I really don't know will it be the same fun. I hope they listen to me and they are eager to learn new stuff. And I also hope they agree to learn in my apartment:



Besides that, I have been feeling weird lately. It is basically explained in a cryptic way in last blog entry, and it kind of goes on. I am feeling a bit lonely despite being surrounded by my beloved kids and friends. Like if there was something missing and I can't really tell what, or I can't tell who, because it is probably someone properly beside me the thing that I am missing.

Anyway, I can't complain about the friends around me! We have been spending some really great time together (you all know who you are). And besides that "almost dead" incident in Brussels it has been funny all along the way. Sometimes I sound like I am saying goodbye?

Whirlwind

What a whirlwind of thoughts and happenings lately. In the last couple of weeks, actually. First things don't work, then they work but they are ruined. Then you look for a way out and don't know if you find the right way then you are called to follow the familiar path then you find a golden path.

Then meanwhile I am threatened for one hour of "WTF is this" and I do not look forward to it but it seems that I can't avoid it because I accepted the commitment and I usually try to keep up with that kind of commitments. Later on kindly found out the key to understand the "ruined" part in the first paragraph, but still haven't found the reason for this "WTF is this" moment. Well, I'd have an answer to all this issue but I better not tell since I am a happy hippie woman and I don't badmouth people, even if I know they are not going to read it. And still it wouldn't be badmouthing but telling opinions and assuming thoughts given the case some things are done without a proper explanation.

I got a couple of confusing messages from a good friend, that kind of thing you never want to happen in a good friendship. Mostly because you know someone's going to be hurt...

I am also being auctioned in Buenos Aires for the sake of the city. Buenos Aires is one of my favourite cities ever, because of the city itself and because of the government. I couldn't trust any other politician more than I trust Eugenio. For those who wonder, the money's going to a fund to give away vaccines for free and to help newbies. The thread of the auction is this one: 434082.1. Go straight to the end and find the last updated list of bids. Iirc the bid needs to be 10% higher than the last one, so don't be greedy, for Kobe's sake!!

I think I am missing something...

Anyway, I'll post it later in case I forgot something important...........


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